Life is not a race.

July 19, 2018
Does anyone else ever feel like you're running of time to sort out your life? It feels like we are all in a rush to complete some end goal. It feels like everyone knows what they want to do and where they want to go in their life. Honestly fair play if you do know, but can any of us really know what we want to be doing in thirty years time at the age of twenty? I'm 21 and I feel like I've made so many decisions just because everyone else has been progressing at the 'socially accepted' rate.


I rushed into college even though I hadn't a notion what I really wanted to do. Like, at the age of 18, did I honestly think I wanted to study FRENCH, Geography and Children's Studies? Do I even like children? How would I even know that, I was literally a child then. Not only that, but I really wasn't mentally ready to leave the care of my Mammy then. I was on antidepressants and I was having panic attacks right, left and centre. I could barely make it through a day of school why the hell did I think I could go off to college? Still, I felt like I had to progress at the same rate as everyone else my age.

And the result of that? I was miserable in college. Yes, I absolutely loved the social aspect, and it probably helped me out a lot with my anxiety, but the academic part was not the one. I hated it and it left me feeling so stupid because I wasn't putting in any effort to my course, so naturally I fell behind in classes. I probably knew in first year that it wasn't for me but I stuck it out because I felt trapped. If I left college what would I do? What would people say? It honestly felt like my life would be over and I remember saying that I'd be stuck in Donegal for the rest of my life. Honestly, why the hell did I feel like that?

I'm about to tell you. It's because if you don't follow the same path as everyone else it feels like you're failing and you're not going to get anywhere. Take my sister for example. She is so good at Art and wants to do Design in college but when she first said she wanted to do it, everyone tried to convince her against it because who gets a job from doing Art??? But someone has to do it, and if that's what she wants to do, then she will make it work.


Anyway, after two years I left college and it was the scariest thing ever because I had no plan and at this stage, it feels, not only like you should have a plan, but it should already be in action. You should be on your way to the End Goal, even if you don't know what that end goal is.

I feel like there is so much pressure to always know what you're doing and always be working towards something and that, for me, feels like such a drag. People are constantly asking 'what are you doing now?' and you're nearly shamed if you're not doing anything, or if you don't know what you're doing.

I'm all for working towards a goal, if the end result is what you really want to do, but why work towards something that's just kindofwhatyouthinkyoumightwantbutyou'renotreallysure? Why commit to something you're not going to get anything from?

At the moment I'm living at home and I've just finished a nail tech course, and at the moment I absolutely love it. Just like for the past nine months I absolutely loved working in Penneys, but I'm thinking about leaving Donegal again and who's to say I'll still love doing nails in three months? Maybe I'll be doing something else, maybe I'll be doing nothing but I'm not worrying about it. I'm 21 and making commitments like that is boring.


Paddy's Day Inspired Looks With Pretty Little Thing

February 20, 2018
St. Patrick's Day is coming up in less than a month and it's one of my favourite days of the year. If you know me you'd know that I'd take any excuse to go out for a few drinks and going out means an excuse for a new outfit. Being an ex-student still living a student lifestyle with the bank balance to match, I know how hard it can be to step out in stunning new outfits every night so with the help of my favourite PrettyLittleThing I've put together some St. Patrick's inspired outfits that won't break the bank.


I paired these black scuba skinny trousers with this green tie front top because it's essential to wear green on St Patrick's Day. I've been really loving tie front tops recently so when I saw this I had to get it.



I also got this distressed oversized denim jacket to go with it and I'm obsessed. I've been wanting a black denim jacket so bad because it's so easy to pair with anything and I really love that this one is distressed as I think it adds an edge to my outfit.


For my second outfit I actually decided to steer away from green and instead I went for this snake print bandeau because obviously St Patrick banished all the snakes from Ireland. Yes, that actually was my thought process.

I paired it with these pink slim leg trousers and I think it looks really good. This is probably one of my favourite outfits I've worn. I'm obsessed with the trousers, and they're so comfy!


*Pretty Little Thing gifted me the items above however all thoughts and opinions are my own.

21 Things I've Learnt in 21 Years

January 24, 2018
Last month I turned 21 and I had been planning on writing this post for quite a while but I smashed my laptop a little while back so I ended up being MIA on here again. For Christmas I got a brand new laptop and I was dying to get back into blogging again because, although I had become quite bored and felt like I no longer had a place in this community, it wasn't until I literally couldn't write that I really missed it (nothing like a smashed laptop to realise you actually like writing). So here's yet another time that I start a blog post explaining why I've dropped off the Internet and promising that this time I'm back for good (I've come to realise that I'm probably lying to myself and you won't see me for another six months but we'll see..)



Anyway..

I turned 21 last month and I had been hoping to share this post on my actual birthday but here we are over a month later so clearly that didn't happen. I always love reading posts about things people have learned in their lives because I always like to think that I take something from them, even it's a simple lesson, so I wanted to share a few of my own simple things I've learnt in the few years I've been around.

◦  When it comes to friendship, it really is quality over quantity.

◦  No matter what is going on in your life, get up, shower and get dressed. It will make a world of difference to your mood, even if it's hard. 

◦  Spend time with your grandparents if they're still around.

◦  Try your best to forgive and forget. Grudges and anger will only hurt your own happiness.

◦  Accept every opportunity that is offered to you. It could open a whole world of possibilities. 

◦  Self care is more important than anything else. Look after yourself, inside and out. 

◦  Don't save expensive clothes for special occasions. Wear them on a Tuesday. Don't save expensive beauty products. Use them when you need some TLC. 

◦  Don't rely on your phone or laptop to keep your pictures safe. Print them out. Stick them on your walls. Put them in a photo album. Don't lose important memories.


◦  Buy a good quality eyelash curler.

◦  Don't regret anything. You wanted it at some point. Instead laugh at your silly mistakes and move on. 

◦  Don't let people take advantage of your kindness. 
''Some people will take until you have nothing left, and then hold a grudge against your hand for being empty.''
◦  Don't be afraid to make mistakes. Don't be afraid to quit something if you're unhappy. It's okay to not know what you're doing. 

◦  This next one comes courtesy of my Mam: ''Always try to look your best. You never know who's watching you.''

◦  Never forget who was there for you in the bad times and who left you when things got tough.

◦  Don't be afraid of getting hurt.

◦  Double wash your hair.

◦  Don't settle for anyone or anything less than you deserve. 

◦  Work hard at what you love. 

◦  Make your bed and open your windows every morning. 

◦  Stop worrying. Live in the moment. Don't sweat the small stuff. Tomorrow carries its own worries so stop thinking about what you can't change. Life has a funny way of always working out.

◦  Be kind to everyone you meet. You never know when your paths will cross again. 

So here's to turning 21 and starting 2018 happy, healthy and hoping to keep my blogging up once again. Until next time, 
Aileen x