Who The F* Am I?

November 5, 2018

Does anyone else feel confused? I will be scrolling through Instagram and I'll suddenly get hit with the thought: 'Who the hell am I?'. It's not okay. I've been me for nearly 22 years now, you'd think I'd be finally beginning to figure this sh*t out.

I don't know what it is. To be fair though, (and not to sound like an oldie) sometimes I think it might be down to social media. All day, every day, I'm reading other people's thoughts, hearing about other people's day and seeing photos of all these people living their life. It makes me wonder, why am I not like that? Not in any 'I wish I was someone else :(' type of thing but just in general. Everyone seems so sure of themselves, and I'm just put here trying to decide if we are living in a simulation or not.

It's a strange one. Sometimes I feel like I'm this confident, out spoken, live life, be successful, adventurous kind, sometimes I feel like a chilled, in touch with myself, meditating, breathe in...breathe out, zen type and sometimes I'm like let me lie in bed all day watching Netflix, don't talk to me, close the door on the way out, moody sixteen year old.

I don't know what's going on. Maybe I'm in desperate need of a break from social media, or maybe I'm still just growing up.

Reintroducing Me

October 24, 2018

Hey. Since it's been a while since I properly blogged I thought I would share a little about me. I think it's important to sit down every so often to think about the person you are, how things have changed, and what you want to do or where you want to go next. I'm very different than I was when I started this blog. Back then I was massively interested in beauty and while I still love anything that will make me more beautiful, my interest has shifted more to fashion.

It's also funny how we can almost grow into our interests? Take for example, I was always interested in astrology but more so recently. When I was younger I always read the astrology section in magazines first and I always wanted to buy Sagittarius charms, necklaces, etc. Now I'm massively interested in all aspects of astrology and I put all my faith in it. Call me crazy but, I'm a Sagittarius.

In other news, I'm currently at home in Donegal and I'm now a certified nail technician which is good because seeing people who I started college with graduating all this week has been pretty crap. People are getting real jobs and I haven't a notion what I want to do with myself. It's fine, though. Honestly, what is the rush?

I'm still trying to figure out which direction I want to take my blog. I'm kind of liking this short rambly vibe but it might be incoherent to most people. I feel like it's more me, though. I talk a lot of nonsense and trying to piece together a full blog that reads smoothly is much too difficult for me. So expect more of whatever -this- is, from now on.

Guess who's back, back again?

October 22, 2018

I'm back, again, would you believe? How many times has it been now? Who's even keeping track? I always seem to get inspo for my blog for like, one day and I plan all these posts and I feel like the next Zoella, and then I remember I'm incredibly lazy and generally cba with my blog, or anything that requires effort. Not a good way to be. Since I changed my blog last year, I've completely lost interest in it altogether which is sad, 'cos I used to love blogging, and I always talk about wanting to get back into it but I can't seem to bring myself to actually do it. It's SUCH a bother for me. I hate taking photos. I'm sh*t at editing. I can always find something I'd rather be doing than sitting and trying to think out each word of a blog post.

Then I realised. That is just the problem.

Back when I loved blogging, I'd sit down, write out a post, snap a few piccys and press publish.There was no planning, no thinking, no editing, no research, Nothing. It was just me. I typed how I talk. I took my photos in crap lighting on my iPod and I loved it. And the funny thing is, those were the days that I had most engagement on my blog, and I'm not sure if that's because more people enjoyed my posts, or if it's because this industry has become so saturated in recent years, but all I know, is that back then, I couldn't care less if there was nobody reading my blog because I just loved doing it, and I really want to get back to that.

Okay, even I don't believe that I'm going to actually blog properly again, but I want to try lol. So, how am I gonna do this? Well, I want to basically have my blog really chilled again, strip it back so I don't get stressed about editing pictures. Life's too short for that carry on.

This whole REBRAND PART 2 is actually making me excited because I don't even know what I'm planning, 'cos I'm not planning anything. All I know is it's going to be more general life, things happening lately and my pointless thoughts. Probably with a little fashion, too. ALSO, I'm going to try micro-blogging, 'cos I know most people don't have the time or patience to read lengthy posts and I don't have 1.) enough happening in my life, and 2.) the attention span, to write really long blog posts anymore.

So yeah, that's it. Hope you're excited. See you soon (probably in 3 months).