June 1, 2017

So, you're probably wondering what the hell is going on. If you've been around for a while you'l know I've been harping on about this rebrand for quite some time. I don't know about you but I'm pretty darn excited about it. I thought I would sit down and write this post because I haven't blogged in what feels like forever and I missed it. So friggin' much.

Firstly, WELCOME BACK. Hello. It's still me, Aileen. I'm still here, I've just got a fancy new URL and a more grown up blog. I've been wanting to do this for SO long but I was terrified of losing my readership, losing all the work I've put into Aillyx and I was very afraid for my bank balance (thanks Katie for the FREE blog header, what a beaut!) so I put it off for weeks and months but after seeing Rhianna's beautiful new rebrand I was completely inspired to kick start mine, and so, here we are.

So, why did I change up my blog exactly, you ask? Well, I'm about to tell you. A gazillion reasons really but mainly because I've changed as a person and as I changed, I no longer felt happy blogging. When I first started this blog I was literally just looking for somewhere to write and talk about my life, beauty bits and in general, my random thoughts and ideas. I've come to realise that this was when I was happiest with my blog. As I progressed I started becoming very self aware and I was overthinking every word, every sentence, every photo, every title. I became way too bogged down on trying to be perfect and because I'm far from perfect, especially regarding blogging, I started to h a t e aillyx. It became almost like a chore. Fast forward to the past year or so, I began talking about my mental health. I wrote one post about my struggle with my mental health and I got such a good reception. I thought 'hey, I'm pretty good at this. Maybe I can do my thing and help some people out while I'm at it?'. So, I guess I just fell into blogging about mental health, which I love doing, of course but it isn't where my heart lies. I love sharing things with the people who read my blog and I love offering support and advice but the more I blogged about this, the more it felt almost silly to write about what lipstick I was loving or what I wore to dinner with my family. So, mental health blogging started taking over my blog and I felt like that's all I could write about.

Now, I'm actually in quite a good place regarding my mental health. I'm back home in Donegal with my family, I've got a job (and money!!!), I've got my boyfriend and my friends and I have so much to look forward to. I'm no longer doing things because I feel like I have to, I can happily say 'no thank you' to any situation that makes me feel uncomfortable or which triggers me. I'm happy, so to talk about my struggle with mental health all. the. time. is draining. I want to go back to sharing my happy thoughts, talking about my new fav eye shadow palette and showing you what I got up to last Saturday. I want to feel like I'm talking to the person reading my blog as a friend, like there is no screen between us. Although Aillyx gave me so much happiness and was there for me through the toughest times *cringe* I just feel like I've outgrown it. That is why I'm saying Goodbye to Aillyx.

So what can you expect from aileenamelia? Well, the exciting part is, I'm not 100% sure yet. I want to get back to sitting down with my laptop at any point in the day and whipping out a fab blog post spontaneously. BUT, you should expect to see plenty of beauty related bits, fashion and a whole lot of lifestyle (and maybe some travel eek!). It's going to be stripped back and extremely casual. And in case you were one of those people who read my blog for the mental health bits, or you're nosy about how I'm getting on juggling life with anxiety and OCD, I got you - I'm gonna still be going on and on about that too, just not AS much. Sounds good, right?

So, that's about all I've got to say at the moment. I'm really excited about this rebrand and I've put a lot of planning and hard work into this (I nearly died doing all the techy bits) so I hope you enjoy it. If you're new , you can find me on InstagramTwitter and Facebook and if you've been here a while, I hope you continue to read and enjoy my posts and stick around for what I have to offer in the future.