Who The F* Am I?

November 5, 2018

Does anyone else feel confused? I will be scrolling through Instagram and I'll suddenly get hit with the thought: 'Who the hell am I?'. It's not okay. I've been me for nearly 22 years now, you'd think I'd be finally beginning to figure this sh*t out.

I don't know what it is. To be fair though, (and not to sound like an oldie) sometimes I think it might be down to social media. All day, every day, I'm reading other people's thoughts, hearing about other people's day and seeing photos of all these people living their life. It makes me wonder, why am I not like that? Not in any 'I wish I was someone else :(' type of thing but just in general. Everyone seems so sure of themselves, and I'm just put here trying to decide if we are living in a simulation or not.

It's a strange one. Sometimes I feel like I'm this confident, out spoken, live life, be successful, adventurous kind, sometimes I feel like a chilled, in touch with myself, meditating, breathe in...breathe out, zen type and sometimes I'm like let me lie in bed all day watching Netflix, don't talk to me, close the door on the way out, moody sixteen year old.

I don't know what's going on. Maybe I'm in desperate need of a break from social media, or maybe I'm still just growing up.